Ruined It Again…

I think I just ruined things with Wonsik again.

I recently texted Elliot and deleted specific messages off of my phone but today when I went to his house I brought my laptop and he saw the messages that I had deleted. I guess its not the texts but more of the fact that I deleted them that made him mad.

I think we really aren’t getting back together. So I guess i’m actually single now for the first time in over 2 years. I’m very sad and I thought that this beautiful online journal entry would help me be less sad. I guess it kind of is making me less sad.

The worst part is I actually saw a future with Wonsik… I saw an actual future with him, something I never saw with Samay. And I know it was so different because right off the bat I was willing to show my family pictures of me and Wonsik and I was chill with posting a picture of him kissing my cheek.

I feel so stupid for ruining things with him. I actually sometimes wonder how I manage to ruin it every time. Things weren’t like this with Samay, Samay was less strict I guess because with Samay I had never really lied before. I guess I’ll update this if anything happens :/

Other than that, an essay was due in English last Friday and I didn’t know andI still have yet to finish it lol. Just kidding, it really isn’t that funny.