November 3, 2019
Okay it’s been a little while since I’ve sat down to reflect and write it all out, but trust me just because I rediscovered Jesus in my life does not mean it’s been a walk in the park ever since. Honestly, my life has been pretty hectic since my last post. I’ve been so busy with school and working I haven’t had any time to write.
I felt like everything came crashing down around me as soon as I opened up to my faith, which makes sense right? It’s not easy being openly religious in today’s society — and historically it has never been easy with the temptations of sin constantly present. A lot of things haven't gone my way lately which really sucks, but the difference is I can now fall back on God.
This past month has taught me to pay attention. Pay attention for God’s signs that he presents to you every day on earth. It could be the slightest thing, but when you pay attention you’ll see it. When I turn on the radio and hear that song reminding me to pray for someone special in my life after hanging up the phone with my sister crying over a boy. When you’re feeling like you have no one to lean on, but then the most amazing people surprise you — a coworker, a girl you haven’t talked to in months, or even a guy you just met. Little things that surprise us all are signs from God that he hears us and he cares.
I’m still stressed with my school and work schedules. I manage it but not always in the best ways. Believe me, I’ve cried, screamed, even just shut down for the entire day, but the difference is God sends me a reminder and helps me get back up every time. I have a lot of unknowns in my life right now but I know that God creates the outcome and whatever it may be, it’ll be uniquely right for me. I guess what I’m saying is, life is still hard but I’m learning how to get through one day at a time with God at my side.
