I’m Hispanic and I Don’t Want Your Fucking Wall

My name is Meghan and I’m Hispanic. Well, sort of.

My father is Mexican and my mom is whiter than white. But I tell people I’m Hispanic. Sometimes, if I’m feeling particularly judged, I’ll say I’m half Mexican but usually its the former.

But recently, I’ve started to feel weird about it.

When I say I’m Mexican or Hispanic, the first thing people typically say is, “but you’re blonde,” or more commonly, “but you don’t look Mexican.”

You’re right. My green eyes and dyed, ombré hair is not what “Mexicans look like”. Number one, dying my hair does not change my heritage. I’m not trying to convince people I’m more white or I’m less anything. I just look better with lighter hair.

Then, if they know Spanish, I’m hit with a thousand words a minute that I can’t comprehend. And yes, I did speak Spanish when I was younger but not much. But I can converse with you in French!

My dad’s side of the family was lost when my parents got a divorce but I’ll still bring up my Abuelita in passing, commenting on how hospitable she is or when she made us stuffed sopapillas for Thanksgiving instead of turkey.

As I’ve grown up, kids have called me derogatory names that I never took too seriously because I knew they were just by-products of racism in America. White kids calling you “beaner” or making jokes about your grandparents being thieves were passed off as “just kids being kids.”

“Racism is still with us. But it is up to us to prepare our children for what they have to meet, and, hopefully, we shall overcome.” -Rosa Parks

I’ve never been ashamed of my heritage nor have I ever stopped saying I am a Hispanic kid.

With this election, I’ve heard my people called names like “bad hombre”, “rapists”, and “drug dealers.” I’ve heard a man scream from his pulpit that Mexico would be paying for this grandiose and magnificent wall to keep our people out.

Illegal immigration is real and it does hurt our economy. But do you honestly think that demonizing an entire demographic living in America is right? Did the Native Americans tell your white ancestors they couldn’t come in because their fur trade economy would suffer? As a fellow Christian, do you truly believe Jesus ordered the Jews to build a wall to keep the Romans out?

Fuck no.

And I fully, completely, understand that there are undocumented immigrants living and working in America but I can assure you, my grandparents, and the grandparents of thousands of Hispanics, didn’t “jump the border”. My great-grandparents immigrated here, legally might I add, and both my grandparents received college degrees.

Building a wall is telling people like me and my family that we are not welcome here. That we are the cause of your problems. That obliterating our culture and removing our bodies from your land is going to solve all of the turmoil America is in. Because white men can do no wrong and because anyone with skin darker than your factory farmed milk turns our blood evil and our hearts cold.

People do not trust Mexicans. They don’t trust those who are here legally and those who have worked hard to bring up their children to support America because of all it has have given them. My father learned to speak without an accent because America would not accept him but he accepted them.

We are not here to “take away your jobs”. Are we, as Hispanics, not worthy of working a fair job? America was settled by the Spanish, English, French; our American status was not innate but inherited. Legal immigrants, Mexicans who try and enter our country with hopes for a better life, we are simply asking for the same rights the ancestors of Trump, the ancestors of Barack Obama, and the ancestors of you received.

I may not “look Mexican” and I may not be a first generation immigrant but I promise you, not all Mexicans are evil just like not all white men have your best interests in mind.


“Rightful liberty is unobstructed action according to our will within limits drawn around us by the equal rights of others. I do not add ‘within the limits of the law’ because law is often but the tyrant’s will, and always so when it violates the rights of the individual.” — Thomas Jefferson