These 100 days of writing on Medium are coming to an end!
It’s Day 98 and I can honestly say I didn’t think I’d do it.
So for the last three posts I thought I’d do a bit of a reflection on this journey, starting today with what I won’t miss about the challenge. (Tomorrow I’ll be sharing what I will miss, so stay turned!)
1. Having to think of something semi worthwhile to say when I’m exhausted
I think this has been the hardest part of the challenge for me. There have been days when I’ve been too knackered to think and days when life has felt too heavy to write a word. A lot has happened since I started the 100 days — I moved five hours across the country to Liverpool, my dear Granddad died and I’m still in a massive period of adjustment. However, this challenge will always serve as a reminder that I can do it, even when life feels very shitty
2. Creating on demand
There’s something to be said for making yourself create something every day and being consistent. However, making yourself create when you don’t feel like it doesn’t feel too good either. It can feel a bit like purposely exploiting yourself for the sake of it. I’m looking forward to getting back to my natural rhythm, allbeit with more consistency, but I’m looking forward to being excited about it instead of it being yet another thing on the to do list.
3. Writing publicly every day
I really value honesty and transparency, but I wonder how my content might have changed if I wrote only for myself. There have been things that I probably needed to work through during these 100 days that I wouldn’t want to do publicly. While I’ve realised I am extremely open and put the vast majority of my cards on the table, this challenge reminded me that sometimes you need to create to heal yourself first.
4. The late night scramble for a coherent sentence
Okay, this one is totally my fault because nearly every day I left it to the end of the day to write each post.
But I’m seriously not going to miss crawling into bed, excited to shut my eyes and thinking 'shit, Medium.’
5. Using up so much of my creative energy
I completely agree with Maya Angelou when she said “creativity can’t be used up — the more you use it, the more you have”, however it just isn’t the same with our energy.
While I’ve felt a lot more creative and facing a blank screen has become a lot easier, it’s also used up a huge amount of my energy for doing creative work. I’ve felt less creative in other areas of my life and I’m looking forward to regaining some of it back to projects I’ve been really excited about.
6. Waking up and wondering what on earth I wrote and how much I bared my soul (and if I crossed any of my own boundaries)
Most of these posts have been written in a sleepy delirious state, which is interesting to look back on. Instead of going into in-depth conversations in my head about what I want to share — especially when it comes to admitting things I struggle with — I’ve taken much more of a 'fuck it' approach and just gone for it.
Sometimes morning-me wakes up thinking, damn, you were brave, other mornings I wake up and think oops, oh well!
When I look back on this list, I see way more positives than negatives. I’m honestly relieved this challenge is coming to an end but am so happy to have it as hard evidence that I can do it.
I’m looking forward to sharing the things I will miss tomorrow! Two more posts to go, so let’s end this on a high ☺