THE FEAR OF FUTURE

Ruhma Khan
Sep 7, 2018 · 2 min read
“run frfom fear fun from rear LED signage” by Owen Kemp on Unsplash

It’s weird how I have just started college, yet when I see days, weeks and even months pass by, I often find myself thinking how I will have to leave this place soon. Which is actually weird, especially when everyone else around seems so relaxed about how they are here for 4 more years, which is enough time to do and experience all they would want to.

But then, when we all look back, don’t we feel like 14 years of school were so less?

The school had become a part of our lives, that daily cribbing over having to wake up early, wearing the same uniform, those weekly tests and constantly asking each other “When will this school end?” had become habits.

When these 14 years flew by so fast, how can these 4 years be enough? When I still have so much to talk to my friends about my school life, when I still call my college as school, then how can I not start worrying from now on. How can I consider 4 years to be enough time for anything?

Moreover, the future ahead already scares me, for it reminds me of the stress I felt at the time of transition from school to college. The fear of making a mistake in choosing the right college or course, the stress of clearing the entrances and the anxiety of the results. It was surely one of the most depressing and stressful phases of my life, and to add to the problems- the thousand questions and suggestions of everyone around you.

And obviously, the transition from college to the life ahead won’t be any easier. In fact, it will bring with it, even more hurdles and challenges. And again, that cycle of distress, anxiety and fear will follow.

However, I then realise, isn’t all this ultimately a part of everyone’s life? Fearing change might not help me in any way but living in the present, making use of the opportunities, spending time with friends and participating in everything I have never done till now, surely will. For it will help me make memories that I can think of when I am stressed and remind me of how, after all:

It takes the sunshine and rain to make a rainbow!

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