Melissa BeckhamIt’s been over a year since I’ve made a post.I googled myself last night to see what my results would be and my Medium page came up. I quickly scanned my posts and decided I should…Jan 3, 2021Jan 3, 2021
Melissa BeckhamMy marriage didn’t last.I came across this post I wrote last year. It made me cry. I’m not sad my marriage is over; I’m hurt that I tried and tried until I…Aug 25, 2019Aug 25, 2019
Melissa BeckhamReading through my old posts, I just broke my own heart again.Life is completely different now.Jul 10, 2019Jul 10, 2019
Melissa BeckhamI received a bill today from my ultrasound back in February.I feel like I can’t catch a full breath. I haven’t been the same since. It’s been two months and feels like forever and yesterday all at…Apr 24, 2018Apr 24, 2018
Melissa BeckhamI’m on my third period since my loss.I scheduled a stat Pelvic ultrasound for a young lady, 26, yesterday. Diagnosis was pelvic pain, rule out ectopic. It’s heart shattering…Apr 20, 2018Apr 20, 2018
Melissa BeckhamAnother Facebook friend announced her pregnancy.I faked a congratulations. Why even bother? She’d understand. We aren’t even close. But for some reason, I felt like I had to. Stupid, I…Mar 19, 2018Mar 19, 2018
Melissa BeckhamI would be nine weeks today.Sticks and stones, right? Words can’t hurt you. Well I don’t know who came up with that nonsense because those words sliced through me like…Mar 15, 2018Mar 15, 2018
Melissa BeckhamYou don’t realize how hard it is losing a pregnancy until it happens to you.It sucks. I haven’t found a better word for it yet. It just sucks. It’s not fair and nothing I do makes it any better. I lost my baby…Feb 27, 2018Feb 27, 2018
Melissa BeckhamI’ve obviously gone through the denial and bargaining.I took time off work to start. I also can’t pretend to be happy when I talk to patients. It’s only a matter of time before I break down on…Feb 22, 2018Feb 22, 2018
Melissa BeckhamMiscarriage looks a lot like losing sleep.Miscarriage sounds a lot like weeping at 2 am. It sounds like pleading, and asking “why?” It sounds like gasping for air in the shower…Feb 21, 2018Feb 21, 2018
