I’m afraid but I’m still trying

I have no idea if I have to go into the hospital or not.

I’m so terrified of everything. I’m self isolating again and I know it. My meds, I’m not sure if they are working or not. The first time they changed them in the hospital, it was like night and day and when I came out of the hospital I was so good. I felt so good. I remember feeling good.

And now I’m so afraid that I won’t be able to work. I’m afraid I won’t overcome this. Some of my biggest heroes have come out as having mental illness and they’ve overcome it and I want to overcome it to. I’m afraid I won’t be able to.

I’m fighting. I’m still fighting for my life and my mental health. I’m not afraid of people knowing that I’m fighting, and I suppose that helps.