Prayer from a college graduate with no job
Well, it has been almost 7 months since I graduated from college with a Bachelor’s of Science. It has almost been 7 months, and I still am not employed full-time. It has almost been 7 months, and I have applied for dozens and dozens and dozens of jobs. It has almost been 7 months, and I have had to start making loan payments, while only working part-time.
I believe God has a plan for me, but that doesn’t mean I don’t cry at Church on Sunday mornings over feeling inadequate in this job search. I am thankful for how God has provided and provided again and again, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t lament to God in prayer after morning devotions. I don’t understand, and it hurts.
I can make the loan payments with my current income, meal planning and eating entirely too many grilled cheese sandwiches, but, hey, they’re cheap, and I like them. Also, I don’t think that sentence was grammatically correct, but it gets my point across.
I scroll through social media. All of the other graduates seem to have full-time jobs. Some of them are for-filling a passion for teaching. Some of them are working for non-profits or activist groups. Some of them have started their own businesses. Then, there is me.
Then, there is me, magna cum laude graduate with no job.
I have no transition here, but this is my prayer:
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
I am confused, hurt, and scared. I did not think I would be struggling in this way. I know my plans are not your plans. I am thankful for the plans you have for me. Your will is the best for me. I want to bring honor and glory to you. I want to advance your Kingdom in Heaven in my character, actions, and career. I desire to be the person you want me to be. I desire to have the job you want me to have. I desire to live and be and act and think and do everything the way you want it.
I am weary, Lord. I accept your rest. Help me to take your yoke. Help me to learn from you. Thank you for being gentle and humble. Help me to be gentle and humble in heart. Help me to find soul rest. Thank you that your yoke is easy. Thank you that your burden is light.