Consistently searching for that which sparks my interest

I get lost in thought constantly. They’re all so jumbled in my brain, it can only be described as chaos. A whirling tornado of notions, that picks up and destroys everything in it’s path.

I feel dumb. Unproductive. What is the point of these seemingly pointless musings? I find myself asking, “What can I think about?” “What do I want to think about?”

There are things that I must focus on during my busy days, and I’ve done a lot better at not pushing them out of the way. But there are those moments where I’m unconfined, free to allow my intellect to expand. I want more from myself.
Where do I even start? Where do I want to start?

hm, ideas?