Waiting

Me and my wife are currently waiting for our daughter to be born. She is late and we are impatient and during all this waiting I find myself loosing interest in pretty much everything else.
I have always struggled with having to wait. I tend to live in either the future or the past. The present moment is something that a lot of time eludes me and right now I honestly don’t want to be present. I just want it to be the day when she is born.
I’ve tried so hard to do so many different things in the last week but nothing gets me going. I end up wasting time and longing for that moment when she is here and I can finally hold her in my arms.
I’ve tried playing music, making music, programming, watching a movie, writing, exercising, meditating.
The amazing thing is that I get more impatient by the day. I sort of knew that our children will test our patience but I had no idea they would started even before they are born.
This has been a huge test of my patience. I guess she is preparing us for when she is here. I have a sneaky suspicion that children are our greatest teacher that way but we will see.
