Move. From the Heart

I have always been overly active in my mind. Highly analytical, intellectual, philosophical. I am in my mind a lot. Probably far too much. I used to take pride in my mind. My ability to control it, to use it, to guide and steer it.

Then in 2012 I was hospitalized and diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, and later Schizoaffective Disorder: Bipolar Type. My mind was no longer functioning the way it had been. I was now struggling to have any control over my mind. It was a huge blow to my ego. I was blinded by delusions, incorrect logic, and negative thoughts.

Today, September 5th 2017, my mind is in a much better state than it was in 2012, but I still have trouble with sticky thoughts and failed logic. Because I moved from my mind so much I often felt this was a major deficit, a major setback. But really, it may just be my saving grace.

What I am realizing now is that having a mind that struggles, I am forced to leave my mind, and move from my heart. And this is where true knowledge and true wisdom, come from.

For most of my life my heart was inaccessible. Locked away in a windowless room, without a key, without any hope, until Jesus Christ.

And now I have a heart of flesh.

And now I have access to my heart.

And while my mind may not function just the way I’d like, I am thankful because perhaps without that perceived setback I would have never learned, to move. from the heart.

Have a blessed day!