Box

Is there anything you haven’t told anyone yet, that you’d like to share with me?

She asks with glimmering eyes, although he can’t see their glow.

I love that you ask that. I have been thinking about the same thing a few minutes ago.

Tell me.

Well… I still haven’t wrapped my head around, but my mind recently opened to another possibility, which I have never considered before.

What caused the change?

A person. Or more specifically, a moment shared with that person.

Can you pinpoint the exact moment when you changed?

Actually, yes. My mind chose not to remember much of the conversation from that night, apart from a very specific argument.

What was it?

There are many things that I used to think are not “okay” for me to do, implanted inside my head by my culture, education, parents and so on. And yet, throughout my life, I have tried them and found out that they are actually one of the most valuable experiences. I’m sure you can resonate with that.

He can hear the smile in her voice.

I do.

That of course doesn’t mean that something “wrong” is actually great for me to do by default. Instead, it inquires into where did the boundaries I set for myself came from, and invites me to consider a possibility of setting my own boundaries, rather than relying on what was implanted into my brain.

I feel that growing up is precisely doing this reprogramming work.

Absolutely. I have gone through this process so many times, and I feel like I’m quite aware of it. And yet the situation I experienced recently made me realise that there are still so many hidden boxes I keep myself within, without even knowing. There’s nothing wrong with boxes, but I want to decide my own.

Have you actually remove the box that night?

Yes and no. The box is gone, as in the possibility which I have never considered before is now open. But it didn’t feel like the right moment for me to actually have the experience, so I still don’t know how it feels on the other side. But there is no box anymore, and that feels liberating.

I’m really happy for you.

I’m happy for me, too. I’m not sure yet what’s the role of that specific moment in my life, but it feels like I needed to have this reminder.

Thanks for sharing it with me.

Thanks for listening. And now… Is there anything you haven’t told anyone yet, that you’d like to share with me?

‘Moments of Connection’ is my attempt at wrapping in words these magical moments when everything make sense and you feel connected with yourself the Universe (whatever that means). If you liked this story, then perhaps you’d like to see the entire series. And if you feel generous, then you can support my work via Patreon or Buy Me A Coffee. Love and Light ☀️.