I have an ‘all or nothing’ problem…

Either or. All or nothing.

In some instances, I want it all or nothing.

In things that matter to me, I want it all and I can’t choose.

I have always envied those that can read and write whilst listening to music.

I can’t. I just can’t.

I cannot divide my brain in that way.

I zone in on the music and am absorbed and lost.

I am pulled in by the words; the places they take me to; the emotions they evoke; the lessons they teach me.

I cannot do both at the same time.

It’s too half-hearted for me.

It’s the same with watching movies and having a conversation.

I cannot do both.

It’s either or. All or nothing.

This past week I had….

A family reunion on one hand.

Family- lots of family. With catch-ups and noisy children, chaos and mayhem, tensions and happiness. Drama and tenderness.

Medium on the other hand.

Magnificent writing. Words to fascinate and educate. Drama and humour. Familiar friends. Heartfelt words of honesty, depth and outreach.

I tried to do both.

I could not.

Too half-hearted.

Too disrespectful to each, to not give my undivided attention.

I’m an all or nothing kinda gal.

So I gave my all to those I hadn’t seen for such a long time. We caught up, laughed and cried and re-connected. I was exasperated by family tensions and touched by the next generation sharing their toys and food and sandcastles.

It seems, I have missed much in the world of Medium. The M waits for none. I will have to catch up and re-connect. I will give the words and their writers, the attention and respect they deserve from me. Almost like another reunion.

It’s all I can do and nothing more than is deserved.