do i want you back tonight ?
or do i want to go back in time ?
do i envy the embrace of another’s arms ?
or do i want you back in mine ?
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There it was again, that strange feeling. It was from the past and the future, but I was feeling it in the present. It was beautiful and twisted, light and dark, but not gray. It was a feeling that had no word attached to it. I couldn’t place it. It was a feeling I…
It’s been so long since I felt anything. I’m living in the moment but I’m not enjoying it. I don’t know how to. I’m but a mass of transient energy, moving about from one place to the next…
heaven did not suit me
so god threw me to hell
down and down
a dark staircase i fell
in flames, and enraged in a fragile state
I freed myself of this thought. It could do me no good. My fate was sealed. It was a hopeless hope, a reach. I was as Tantalus, forever reaching for the things I would forever be denied. My feet were planted firmly and I could not move. No matter the effort I made to reach the things I wanted, the result was…