Every night I feel guilt, I feel like I let someone down, I feel like I don’t do enough and I feel that I do too much. I sit in bed looking at my ceiling, wondering what it would be like just to escape to a utopia. To be guilt free in my personal utopia, a quiet, peaceful place with the one person I love most. Why do I feel guilt?? I don’t know, I put on a mask for people to see what I want them to see. I don’t know how to keep everyone happy, I love it when everyone is happy, it makes me happy but lately it feels like everyone just does not feel any type of happiness. It feels like if I help one person then I let down another. This isn’t a cry for help but just another midnight thought. I don’t need help I just want you to be happy. I’ll keep the mask on to make you happy or I can take it off for you to see the real me. I’ll show you my inner thoughts and my guilt. I’ll show you my pain and I’ll show you my triumph. I’ll show you my midnight thoughts.
