80% fatalism in your piece, 20% hope. But even when you are soaring, you are focusing on the fear below. This is not the way to live your life. This is not the way I live my life.
When I was in my 20s I was awash in fear and hopelessness. Then I came to twin revelations: 1) “This is bullshit. I’m doing it to myself.” 2) “Thou art good.” Came to me in a dream.
Since then I have been at acceptance and going for it. I have taken big risks, failed miserably, lost lots of money, then succeeded, and got back on course. My course has changed, several times. But I have never fallen back into fear and fatalism.
Why? Why the basic difference in life mood?