Just When I Think I’m Getting Somewhere
I’m an angry person. It’s hard to admit, but when I take a step back and conduct a self-evaluation, I realize that I have a lot of unresolved anger.
I want to change, but I feel if I give up the anger, I’ll turn into this happy, life is wonderful, 24/7 positive, chipper prick.
Yes, you know the type of person I’m talking about and you think they’re pricks too. As a matter of fact, if you can punch them in the face repeatedly without any repercussion, you’d happily oblige.
No, becoming that type of person doesn’t appeal to me, and so I carry around a heavy bag of anger.
It’s not good. I know.
There has to be a middle ground, though. One where I retain a degree of edge, intensity, and command of respect.
Assertive yet compassionate.
I don’t visualize myself enough as that person, hence my stagnation.
It’s time to do that what I know I need to do, no matter how awkward it may feel at first.
We must see ourselves as we intend to be and imprint that vision upon our subconscious mind through repetition mixed with emotion.
It’ll be worth the effort.