Mike Wilson Has Died
A part of me passed away back on June 13, 2016.
The wall of anger, resentment, and self-absorption that I’ve built and reinforced since early childhood since my parents divorced has been demolished.
A profound change has happened, and right now I cannot attribute this event to anyone other than God.
I prayed for change amidst what I thought was an impossible situation. I remembered when I prayed for change, I didn’t have a “feeling” in my heart. I prayed for a change of heart.
It came at a time I least expected it. And at the time it happened, I must admit, I didn’t realize that this was an answer to my prayer. God felt distant during this process, even though I didn’t realize he was closer than ever.
I fell victim to addiction — two gripping forms. At some point, when God gives me the strength, I will share my story.
Right now, I am not clear in the clear of these addictions, but I am taking the necessary difficult steps to prevent me from backsliding. It feels humiliating, weak, and against my faulty belief system to reach out and ask for help, but I am doing so.
Although a huge part of me died weeks ago, my former self has not fully passed away.
Please pray for me as I continue this process of surrendering my life to God and dying to “self”, and if I can do the same for you, let me know.