I just want to quickly share a really personal milestone with you all here. I finally decided enough was enough.. I needed to at least check out an AA meeting before I dismissed it completely. It was really a tough thing for me to do. I have been toying with the idea of going for a few months now and could never summon the courage to actually walk through those doors. I’ve sat in the parking lot and left as the meeting started, I’ve thought that I don’t actually need meetings, I’ve driven past and saw no parking in front so I used that as an excuse to not go in. Today I just finally had enough. I’’ve felt my life completely spiraling and crumbling for the past few weeks and today it was going to either be drink until I don’t wake up or get serious about trying to recover. I ended up going to a beginners meeting two towns over( my ego cant let people I know see me going into a meeting). This time, I arrived 15 minutes early and was shaking I was so nervous about going in. I enter and there’s probably a good 20ish people there ranging from my age(26) all the way up to what looked like mid 60s or 70s. I did feel slightly out of place at first, but then everyone started sharing and I just was engulfed with emotions because I could relate to a shit ton of what they were saying. Some of the stuff they mentioned didn’t happen to me(yet) but I saw their thinking patterns and recognized those exact same ones in my own head. I didn’t feel comfortable sharing yet but I was approached at the end of the meeting and given some numbers as well as a 24 hour chip. It just felt…good..to hear (in person) that other people are struggling and succeeding. Part of what led me down this path was a loss of all hope that my life could get better. I at least felt that these people had regained some hope and it’s helping them manage. Anyways, I tend to ramble some but I’m just really proud of myself for finally going. Thanks for being here to push me in the right direction /r/SD! See more about Self Help at: http://ift.tt/1KBGGDK
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