Thinking of a guy at the end of old year!

Last night, I shared questions on fb “ What is my passion? What am I pursuing? What do I need now?”

I asked not because of seeing the answers of other people; it was just a way to have a look at myself, what i have gained for a while after graduating. In fact, no one can give me the right response because they are for me, for myself, not for others’. This not my first time asking myself something like that… I have asked for many times…I cannot count. But why did I do that? Giving a question many times, again and again? You maybe think that I am crazy or I just complain without doing anything. I even cannot find out what i need now?…. I guess you have sth in your mind like “What the heck the kind of this man?” or “He is weird, anyone has their own dreams” …etc. Yes, you are both right and wrong.

You are right. I seem to be not patient in doing sth what I think is not easy. At first, I can start with good, motivated and enthusiastic feeling…but then when I feel it is not easy anymore, I delay and stop. I will be attracted by other things… That is why I am usually neglected and cannot focus on.

You are wrong. I meant in the past when I was a child, I had a dream, too, but I cannot remember what it was. And also who care for a dream in childhood? The world is changing every second, so we have to change our dreams to suit to new things. In my mind, I also have something to pursue, something to follow and hope for. At university, after reading a book named “ I Am Gifted, So Are You”, I wrote my life’s plan with very very big goals for me to achieve and alongside with a famous quote of Nick Vujicic. Now look back at that, I have been on the wrong roads some times. Moreover, I also designed lots of timetables and plans to follow till today. There are 3 things for me to follow right now: figuring out the way to do marketing, promoting my services, getting contacts of people who love traveling to my place, include Vietnam, Laos and Cambodia and convince them to book tours of my company; gaining enough knowledge and experience to be a good tour guide; and getting an IELTS certificate for learning oversea (in case i gain a whole scholarship).

Alright, that are my goals ! So why don’t I make a timetable and follow that instead of complaining? Because I’m always afraid of failing, afraid that I will delay and give up after a while from the starting…

“If you really want to do something, you will find a way. If you don’t, you will find an excuse” — Rim Rohn

I’m a kind of man who is afraid of changing. Once, my girlfriend (she is my friend and a girl^^) has said to me “If you want to change, you should be decisive. I hate someone who is stay still like that, want to change this way, and delay in other way”. She is right, I am always in conflict, I find out that I have 2 men in myself: optimistic and pessimistic. Let me tell you an example about this: At first, tonight when my friend suggested me trying some writing, the pessimistic man thought I was bad at writing and I would not do it well; on the other hand, the optimistic man whispered nothing impossible, nothing is easy from the beginning. ^^ But now, I’m doing it even I have no idea it is good or not..but finally I did. It will be better. Everything need time and practice :)

Yep. It’s over midnight now. I should stop “complaining” and think positively I can do it.

“In life, YOU have a choice: Bitter or BETTER?”