This is a powerful piece that speaks to me on a very deep level.
When I was in college, I used to walk in circles around a fountain, trying to shake off the weighting sadness and feelings of being the wrong person in the wrong place. I wish I could have walked away the thoughts that I am not enough, can never do enough, will not be able to make the changes even if I “be” them.
I have a dog now and walk with him. Seeing his joy in walking takes away a little of the sting of things I wish I could “walk off” but just can’t. Looking for that joy for myself.
I hope you find it too.