Purpose of life — to get on with it. Running away is no solution. More than half the world would be dead this way. Let your pain enrich you, not destroy you. I wonder what made you so desperate, but nothing stays the same. I too have shared your desperation for most of my life. Then, there came a point where I too wanted to do what you are trying to do. But I decided to go on. Then, my life as i had built painstakingly crashed. But I decided to build it again. And no, i am not a wise woman. I make mistakes, i learn, i laugh, i cry. But after being suicidal for so many years, i have come to love life in both its agony and ecstasy. Can’t u live to the hilt? Yes you can. You must.