My teenage puberty, my midlife crises.

I want to kiss other people. See what is out there. I want to experience what it feels like to have people like me. To find me sexually appealing. To want to sleep with me...but I also want stability and a family. Someone to cook for or burn the house down trying. Someone who wants me for more than my body but also my brain and recognizes me as the woman I am. I want to be alone I want to date lots of people. I want one person who wants me as much as I want them. I’m so confused because I want to be alone and at the same time, I want him.