The inner struggle is real

It’s often a thought that comes to your mind which begins the peril of nostalgia. All images flash before our eyes, some deeply touched some confusing. Our experiences in life have a meaning which we come to realize through introspection and extraordinary criticism. Often we are so occupied by mundane activities we forget to record these conversations with self. One has to recognize the impact of memoirs to be able to travel through them when necessary.
We traverse through numerous personal experiences on a daily basis and have little time to process it.
Traveling through different planes everyday can be both good and bad. Because there are days when we feel at our highest point and days when we lose all hope and look for ways to justify how we feel. The world revolves around success and the way success is measured in the millennial world is another huge concept. Money, company, luxuries are some of its components. There is chaos in our world, there never is a good news on the TVs or in print. We hardly ever see a ray of sun in some gloomy parts of the earth smothered in thick black fog as a result of pollution, but that’s another thing. Let’s just take it figuratively, there’s very little sunshine.
Along with the pressure of coming to terms with your growing up and aging, millennials have little time to draw maps of how they wanna grow up, and become someone they thought they wanted to be. That little time which our ancestors had during their time due to lack of technology. But on the side, tech is making it very simple to record our thoughts with a verbal diary, jot down things in great fonts and have served us great storage clouds with enough space to punch in a lifetime of thoughts. That comes with one drawback, the time is still not there. Because these advances have made us stuck to our mobiles like slaves. We keep using our phones for everything under the sun, thankfully personal hygiene is still basic.
You sit on your bed at night, tired from a long day of work and struggle. You do not posses the patience or the zeal to cook a meal and have it with your family or friends. You want to be left alone.
It does sound very spooky but you’re never alone. That device of yours is working continuously and it’s hard to keep up with those numerous notifications, emails, friend’s friends’ birthdays, upcoming bookings, deadlines for filing taxes, paying bills, following up on stuff which requires extra effort and as human beings that pulls us down. We weren’t wired to compete with robots for starters. Our brain and heart can only take as much. Constant exposure to things ‘I still have to do’ is a great stress builder. Rarely can one relax and focus well if you’re being overwhelmed. Then there are those high achievers who can juggle it so well. The truth is no one can. Everybody struggles.
Just because someone keeps their shit together, it doesn’t make them an all rounder. They’ve their time managed, they know some things that they learnt the hard way too. Even then, everybody feels the fatigue. We all need that little time to process how we feel.
The little time I’m talking about is so hard to find because of easy distractions like Netflix, beer with friends, newly opened cafes which you have to try so that your friends know you went there and could afford the highly expensive gourmet coffee. This pressure to keep up is killing more than half of our generation today.
Then comes a day when you feel so lost and numb, it’s difficult to understand your own feelings. You try to decipher but it’s a mess. You’ve a six months backlog to cover on emotions and personal experiences, but you’ll get there. It might take a few days off technology, somewhere in the corner of your own house with no phone calls and friends. You will figure out how or why your ex seemed like the best option last week when you felt the loneliest in a long time. You will figure out why divorcing your husband/wife was a reckless decision. You will figure out what exactly you feel if the outside world stopped dictating your feelings for you or the emotions you should feel.
So you will draw a line. You will become stronger and clearer. You will conquer your emotions and train them to act like what you feel. You will become independent again. Your phone will again become your assistant and not your boss.
You need this more than you think.
