Borderline: under my skin.

Misty Melville
Aug 27, 2017 · 3 min read

I wake up in A&A, being treated by paramedics with no delay

‘-Faster, sister’, ‘-We’re losing her!’, I hear a white concerned face whisper

Who are they talking about so loud? Who are all those people in this crowd?

Why are they leaning over my face? Why is it so cold? What is this place??

‘-I am sorry to say that Ms Melville has died. Call for forensics, was it a homicide?’

Deceased? Me? Hey, am here!- I scream, but they don’t seem to hear….Is it all a bad dream??

-‘I’m sorry for your loss; no need to argue the toss,

No investigation is needed,

A life-long addiction preceded

She was psychotic, neurotic

Despotic, into BSDM and erotic

With rich history of soporifics abuse

An official enquiry into the death is of no use

She was heavily addicted and bipolar

Sir, there’s no need to holler

She struggled with insomnia, obsessive-compulsive disorder

Had suicidal tendencies and inclination to ponder

Big ideas as well as issues poisoned her brain

She died in her sleep, felt no pain

No, there are no discrepancies or doubts

Sir, please don’t shout, I know you doubt

But’-

Wait, Daddy you here? Tell’em it’s a smear!

I am right here, stuck! Don’t disappear!

‘-Her heart’s still beating, but brain is dead’

Hold on! What was said?? I’m not dead!

Dad, tell’em, I’m right here! Go ahead!

-‘As much as I would love to help…’

Fuck you, let go off me, don’t yelp!

-‘Now she’s gonna join 27 club

That she used to fantasize about…’

You stupid twat, I’m alive

Just gimmie a few secs to revive

Unfold my wings and fly

I didn’t die, Dad, don’t cry!

Who is this evil persona?

Am I in a coma? I just wanna

Wake up fucked up today

Blow this stupid doc away

I guess this all drug shit

Took an unexpected twist

Hanging in between life and death

Trying to catch my last breath

Imma prove them wrong,

I am here and I’m strong

What the fuck, where’s my luck

Escaped death so many times before

When she was knocking on my door

They might think it’s my demise

But surprise, surprise!

It’s my rebirth in disguise

Imma never give up,

Fuck, take away this crazy slut!

What is she up to? Injecting shit?

What’s that pill? I gotta spit it

Is it crime they intend to commit?

You won’t shut me down,

No, fuck off with this gown…!!

Dad! Wait! Where are you going?

My fear’s growing as they keep on throwing

My things, my possessions and belongings away

Dad, don’t go! I’m here! Stay!!!

Why are they coming at me?

I can’t see, what’s that key?

All right, I get it, they wanna lock me down

I frown as they try to drown

Everything that I ever was

What about my laws??

Everything I could ever be

Misty, wake up! One, two three!

Soon it’s gonna be too late

When we get past this gate

Oh no, is it a mortuary?

It’s gross, yuck!, so glary

Why did they pronounce me deceased?

What have I done? What have I missed?

Is it too late for me now?

They wanna prep me somehow

An undertaker comes, showing his thumbs up

‘-Well done boys!’, ‘You’re done!’

‘-Now we’re gonna have some fun!’

‘Staging her overdose was a piece of a cake

Nobody noticed that her results were fake!’

His voice is hoarse and he shows no remorse

As he approaches my corpse, I am mortified

The crazy doc and the undertaker are allied

I gotta get away, do something and escape

I scream inside my head as he starts to rape

Me! Fuck, no! Somebody help!!!

I wanna mock his little cock and puke

Then the crazy dock gives him rebuke

‘-Look,’ he says, ‘We both took that crook

Let’s share her’, he said and shook

Fucking hell, I can’t bear this smell

Is it them on me or me already rotting

I ponder as I start plotting my way out

Shouting out my lungs with no sound

I need to divorce reality, this fatality

C’mon, Misty, switch off, black out…

Wait! What was that all about?

Where am I? In my bed? What’s wrong with my head?

The doc and undertaker are gone- great but why…?

Oh I get it now, I didn’t die, I was just high….

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Misty Melville

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