on conviction

my first year here i used to write like

one of these oversized sticky pad pages?

like these post it legal pads?

i’d write at something on at least one of those every morning while my computer was booting up

and i had them splayed all around my cube

and it was very satisfying and gratifying and i was on a consistently writing roll with it

and then i took the time to gather them all up and read through them after i thought there might be something there

and once i read it all i was like wow there is nothing here


so i just tried to organize them all better and added them to a big messy note file

that is literally collecting dust on a desk in my room

every couple of weeks i’ll blow on it to get rid of the topmost loose layer