Gone but Never Forgotten
To The Boy I Can’t Stop Loving:
During the day, I’m fine. I go to work, to school full time, I go out with my friends, I go on dates and I tend to explore quite often.
I always wonder why these dates never turn into anything more. Why the guys never seem work out with my personality, but then I realize, it’s me. I am the one who stops talking to them or decides that another date would not be a good idea.
Why? Why would I do that?
Then I realize its because none of them are you.
Then night falls, and as I am laying in bed. Sometimes you sneak your way back into my thoughts.
13 months ago, or 2 months, it really doesn’t matter because it never seems to leave my mind. All of the thoughts about you and us, they never find there way out of my memory. The way that you would kiss me unexpectedly, or the way you would hug me so tight and never want to let go. Not to mention the millions of sarcastic comments flying through the air. I would watch the word leave your lips as they jumped toward mine, and mine would leave to come right back.
This is usually when I start to become angry at you.
I understand that we had different moral rights. We didn’t see eye to eye on a matter of things, but I thought maybe just maybe that the good would help outweigh the bad.
The details don’t seem to matter that much. Considering you were the one who told me you wanted to to be with me forever, over and over. Making me feel like the luckiest girl in the entire world. Then it all changed, and in the blink of an eye, you took it all away.
13 months ago I told you that I would always want you and that would never change. To be exact, I’ve been telling you this for the few years. It still stands true.
And doesn’t that just suck? I will always want you and you will never see that.
Everyone tends to say, “it gets better with time”…I call bullshit.
They should have said “the daytime gets better with time.” That may stand to be true, because the night time will haunt you.
So you go on, continue living your life always being happy, never falling apart, never feeling the pain.
I just have to say thank you, for breaking me, and taking part of my heart you left.
Always and Forever,
The Girl That Will Always Have Your Heart