To The Person Who Showed Me What Love Shouldn’t Be Like.
I just want to say thank you. Thank you for showing me how to love. And thank you for hurting me. You made me the person I am today and for that I am greatful. You put me through hell. You tore me apart, and pushed me past my limits. Yet I stayed by your side.
From the first day I met you I was hooked. We talked and flirted and after a while you told me you loved me... And the dumbest thing I ever did was believe you. But I did. And at that point I truly honestly loved you, despite what people told me about you. They all said you would hurt me and use me. But I didn't listen. I trusted you. I gave you my heart.
Yes we tried to be together but something always got in the way so it could never be official. But every time we were together it just felt so right. We would act like we had been together forever. Happy, crazy in love. Nothing could come between us.
There would be times that you would be so mean to me and tell me you didn't love me anymore and that you didn't want to talk to me. There was times I would cry bc of the verbal abuse you put me through. You mentally and emotionally messed with me. And it hurt so bad.
After about ten months I gave you a part of me that I could never get back. I let you in farther than I've let any one else. And after that we got Into a huge fight and didn't talk all summer. This killed me. You were all I thought about you were all I wanted. And I couldnt.
After summer was over and school started back up I started to see you again and we started talking. I still had the same love for you. And then you told me you still loved me too. And that is something I should have never listened to because I ended up getting hurt even more. I would cry to my mom because of you. And I would stay up every night crying on my bedroom floor at 2 a.m. You did this to me. Now we don't talk. Like at all. I see you every day and we pass by each other like strangers. And I couldn't be happier.
But because of you I could never ever imagine putting someone thought the pain you put me through. You showed me that I deserve so much better than to be treated like that. As I said in the beginning, thank you. I really needed the stuff you put me through. I am happy you did because now I am that much smarter and have that much more knowledge. That love was toxic and one side. So good bye for good.