Mohini Aghor
Jul 10, 2017 · 2 min read

THE LIMPIDITY OF THOUGHTS

I sat under the shower today

Haven’t had felt so helpless before.

The water ran over my body

To wash my loneliness completely.

I took two-three deep breaths

And sensed the emotions flowing along with the water.

As the water reached till every part of my body,

Every feeling from the minute gaps started oozing out.

I tried to swallow, I tried to grab

But everything seemed to slip off.

I stopped trying to take control

And everything seemed justified.

I stretched my legs to the relax myself

And that very minute, peace came in.

All the diverted thoughts looked channelised !

As I hold my body with both hands around.

The water felt soothing

The body felt calming.

All the emotions of fear, insecurity, pretending, and discomfort

Were being washed off.

I could see myself being easy

With myself, for myself, to myself.

In a minute or two

I was changed.

I wasn’t tensed or alone

I was happy with the sound of my own.

But somewhere in my conscious

It was not easy to let go things.

Let go feelings

Let go the old me .

I still wasn’t letting go the old.

I still wasn’t welcoming the new.

Whilst this dilemma

I took a splash of water on my face.

I didn’t know,

blurred vision would make things

clear and glow.

The splash as if gave me confidence

The splash as if gave me comfort.

I repeated to take a couple of breaths

But this time they were drastically different !

They were surprisingly fresh

They were surprisingly free.

As again the water droplets rolled over my face

I could sense worries going off.

The chilled cold shower water

Felt as cozy as a special place beside the fireplace.

I got up and wiped my being

I could see the dirt of dullness being cleansed.

As I wiped my face,

I could see the real smile pop up there.

As I wore my warm Turkish robe,

I felt like a knight in shining armour.

I had almost conquered the helpless phase

I had become comfortable with myself.

Maybe the quest is until

We accept our feelings.

Maybe the quest is until

We overcome the discouraging emotions.

As I was stepping out of the bathroom

I could feel the change in myself.

I was very bold and confident

I was very sure and undoubted.

Knowing and accepting ourselves is very essential.

Sitting and not defending ourselves to ourselves is very essential.

The battle between we and we is until

We accept me is me.

    Mohini Aghor

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