I Did NOT Lose My Mind…


Be warned that there will be some of you that will wonder if something is going on with me or if something has happened and why am I choosing to express myself this way. No worries… all is perfect! Carry on :-)

You know honestly this video says part of my vision with
“Mommy On A Mission”. For so long, I thought I was caged (yes I said caged) to only being a mom but I knew that there are other parts of Donyetta that I want the world to experience!!! For so long I thought it just wasn’t fair because I felt like I hadn’t yet lived and now I’m a mom. It wasn’t until this year that I actually said “F” it!!! I don’t care who likes me or not, it’s ok!!!

You see I can be no one’s mother, wife, partner, friend, child, etc. UNTIL I am Donyetta!!!

I remember the days of attempting to follow the “rules” that were set but knowing deep down inside that I was suffering trying to find my own, trying to make Donyetta happy but it was hard to do because in the end there are other people’s feelings that are put before yours. Where and how did that happen? When did it ever come to play that we should please others over ourselves? Is that being true to self? Of course not!

I am NOT the rules and regulations that have been created by someone who chooses to control others. I am NOT caged. But I literally thought I was because I attempted to follow every rule known; don’t smoke, don’t cuss, don’t have sex on the 1st day you meet a man, you can’t do that now that you’re a mom, don’t do this, and don’t do that…. The list went on and on!! I ALWAYS would think to myself; what would my parents say, what would the preacher say, what would the teacher say… But deep down inside I suffered because I just wanted to be right. I wanted to go by the “book of life” that someone else created. I did my best to stay within the parameters of society yet there was always this side of me that appeared to be “rebellious” and I’d get in “trouble”. LOL!!!

Many people have said many things about Beyonce’s album and it’s not a matter of who’s right or wrong because frankly that doesn’t matter. What I chose to do was seek out the message that was for me. The message was loud and clear that I received from several of her songs; that message was to be, do and have what I want. This message doesn’t play down being a mother! No it doesn’t! But it says that it’s ok (in fact, welcomed) to embrace all sides of yourself as a person. One of the things that Beyonce said in this video was that she was fully aware that she was showing her body! She expressed that she worked so hard to get her body back after having her daughter that she wanted to show her body!!! I love it!!! Many of you won’t. But her whole point was that she wanted to show other moms that you too can get the body of your dreams EVEN after kids. Not just the body of your dreams but the LIFE of your dreams.

In all honesty, this is video was a perfect expression of one of the elements for “Mommy On A Mission” and that is femininity…allowing your freedom of expression to shine as it is. No filters, no excuses, no “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to offend”; just plain ole’ ALLOWING and FLOWING.

Of course I realize that many of you will pass judgment and that is fine. It is not for me to deal with your hang-ups. But what I will say is that I am prepared to live life just as I’ve always wanted to…FREELY. I love you <3

Stay tuned for more with “Mommy On A Mission” promoting femininity, fitness and financial independence.

Donyetta

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