14/07/2015-evening

i didn’t do shit today. yet another day wasted. they’re more frequent than they used to be, the shit days. well, no, that’s untrue. shit days are normal. it’s the wasted ones that bother me. i used to read books. i wrote. i spoke, i learned, i educated; i was wrong and i was right. now, i don’t do much. i sit, i drink and i smoke. i should do less of those.

i spent most of the day with rene and sebastian, playing stupid video games and dicussing infantile bullshit. they dumb me down. i love them both and would kill for them, but my brain just doesn’t do shit when i’m with them. it’s just off. maybe that’s why i only bother with them when i’m high; i don’t do that with anyone else. maybe i’m just an asshole. maybe i should get my shit together.

fuck you,

I. Monarch