A family torn apart, i’m tired

So much has happened over the last few years in my own personal life and within my own immediate family (myself, spouse, and kids). The past five years have been hell.

Over the last fourteen months or so, I have also been helping a sibling with very serious issues, personal battles, and demons.

Now, I have been informed that there is a conflict that is tearing apart my two siblings and their families. It is a conflict that I fear will never see resolution or forgiveness. The accusations levied are enormous, and very serious! Very serious! This could have legal ramifications.

While I haven’t been asked directly, I feel an internal pressure to stand with one and not the other. I am so conflicted in all of this. I tried to play devils-advocate with one side, just to try to get them to think about the other side, and was met with such anger and rage. It took a while before I could get them to see the point I was trying to make, and to also assure them that, I was not choosing one side or the other.

There will likely never be a Christmas, wedding, funeral, or any other event where we’re all together again.

I’m tired. Tired of my own struggles. Tired with the struggles of others. I just know that nothing will ever be the same with that side of my family. Makes me very sad!