Dear Evelyn, the most difficult and loving thing we can do for ourselves and our children.
Reading this post and all gives me courage to go on. At least that I am not the only one to go through this. Reading you always gives me power. I wish I could print all your words out and stick them in my walls to remember when I cannot look up.
I am in this spot everyday with my child. So many things I have to change, my family matters are very similar to yours, all this believes and concepts from childhood are like a tornado now when I have this creature in front of me and I want her to be free from all this chains and not to fear anything. But first I have to undo my chains of fear. Somedays I can do it with happiness and love. Other times I am so exhausted and sad from daily earthy happenings, cannot do it. I die a little if I don’t keep walking.
I appreciate deeply all your words and Leo’s. Thank you for sharing your wisdom to the world.