The depression monster has been really killing it these past few weeks. Killing me. I have very little desire to do anything. Getting tasks done has felt impossible, from sending emails to just getting out of bed. I’ve been sleeping through alarms and sleeping about 12 hours every night. Despite all my sleep I feel exhausted. My Crohn’s has been flaring up a little, and that isn’t helping. I’m writing this to simply get back into writing. There’s a lot I want to do. I want to practice my violin, write, be helpful and work and actually make lesson plans for teaching my violin students, or at least have some sense of organization there. I’m counting down the days to therapy. I hope Dr. Busby can help. She’s been my therapist for a year and a half, and she’s immensely helpful. I’m just so tired.