Dear Lover,

Marina
Marina
Sep 3, 2018 · 2 min read

Dear Lover,

I’m not speaking to my future or my goodbye lover. I’m writing to a love I hope to pen letters to forever.

You were my first. My first that didn’t attempt to reopen a wound or force me to revisit trauma so that you could ‘better understand who I am’ or ‘where I’ve been.’ Instead you put me face to face with who I’ve become. This was new to me. We didn’t play the guessing game of asking questions so that we could silently try and make assumptions about how we’d treat one another. You took the time to unravel the woman I worked so hard to love again and for that you get exactly who I mentioned in my first letter when someone like you was just no one I knew. You, “reap the benefits of the strength I built rather than feel as though you’re paying for a person you’ve never known.

I look at you with a new pair of eyes. I kiss you with lips that no longer quiver from hurt. I breathe you in with lungs that no longer feel heavy. You are the flower that grew from concrete and dirt. I love you with a heart that is no longer sheltered. I love you with emotions I want to share and not selfishly keep. I offer you parts that are confidently held together. I offer you all of me.

Without fear of being let down. Without the fear of you letting go. I’ll tell you what I’m feeling, when I’m feeling. I’ll be transparent so you always know. I can’t promise you’ll always understand. But, I can promise that I’ll always help you try. Shed some light to help bring clarity when I’m able, because love doesn’t necessarily have to be blind.

If you willingly agree to do the same with me, I can guarantee I won’t hold on by a thread. I’ll be your favorite get-away when you feel the need to escape. I’ll be the diary to help you get life off your chest. I’ll stay silent when you just need me to listen. I’ll give you my two-cents of advice when you ask. I’ll be there to remind you, ‘it’s okay not to have it all together’, and that ‘this too shall pass.’ I won’t lie to you and tell you what you want to hear. I won’t feed you words that even I can’t defend. Because, before I am your girlfriend or lover, I vow to always be your best friend.

I feel I am the woman we both waited long enough to find. I feel you’re the man we’ve both waited long enough to meet. I’m fortunate to know the best version of you, and introduce you to the best version of me.

Let’s do this…

Marina.

Marina

Written by

Marina

A writer & poet doing everything I can in one lifetime. Author of “SOUL INVESTIGATION” — You are appreciated.