Funny how sometimes exactly what you need to see shows up in front of you. Your piece is kind of like a reflection of what I have been feeling for the last 5 hours sitting here alone in my room. It came up as a small notification on my phone, and for some reason I decided to read it even though I have been away from Medium for a while.

So I have been quite groovy too. But for the last two months I have been feeling surprisingly exceptional. I felt a certain kind of peace that only came with the true understanding of the phrase ‘fuck it.’ I found myself letting go of the need to feel or be a certain way, simply because I realized that’s just how life is. Sometimes it’s great, sometimes it is a shithole. Just when you think you have found your ‘path,’ you hit a roadblock. Similarly, sometimes people are just fucking great, and sometimes they are frustratingly confusing.

Knowing this made me realize that during my bad days, everything feels like shit. But during my good days, my perspective is shining bright. And I really can’t do much about my bad days simply because they are never going to go away. So I stopped trying to eradicate them from my life, and that’s when I thought I’m finally heading somewhere.

And thankfully, like a graph that peaks and dips but steadily goes higher, that’s how life feels like right now… even though just 5 hours ago I was feeling so damn down. But I let myself feel that way. I proclaimed about ten times that my life sucks… and I let myself do it. I complained and complained until I felt that I’m done. I even thought I had lost my grooviness. But the truth is I never really lost my grooviness, that was just me feeling… groovy.

And after all that crying and complaining, I felt like going out and listening to some music. Not because I wanted to feel better, or I wanted to stop complaining, but simply because I was done with it. I let out my frustration and my burden and I was done.

While I was letting all of that out, I knew it was simply because it wasn’t my day. I didn’t put pressure on myself to feel better nor did I analyze why I was feeling the way I was. I just let it be. I remember when I was younger I would call this ‘one of those days,’ and I wondered for a long time where that perspective went, until now.

I don’t think I will ever really figure it out. But I can say I have been letting go of things more now, and maybe that is just a part of growing up. I guess you begin to realize how futile and confusing and sometimes exhilarating life is. It’s a complete package of all sorts of things. But it is the letting go that has been giving me so much peace lately. I’ve been letting go of not only my own imagined failings, but also those of others. And I’ve been genuinely doing it because I began to see the humanness of it all.

Anyway, my point is reading your article brought a smile to my face. It made me reflect on my own realization that I’m human, just like everyone else over here, and I thought I should express that. Thank you.