It is not really. It belongs to God. He loves you very much. I pray his love becomes real to you some day. I pray his love becomes too strong for you to ignore. I pray his love heals you completely.
I have never been suicidal, but I can talk about depression or worse still listlessness. Thank God for his love, for friends and family who saw light when all I could see was darkness.
You can check out iRaquel.com (My life’s journey -stories of courage, strength and choices). The blogger shared her suicide story. I hope her story encourages you.