What I learned from my 7 monther.

I have a 7 month old baby boy. In those 7 months, I have learned from him more than he has learned from me.

I learned about…

Patience.

I thought I was patient since I’m a preschool teacher. But having him around taught me to stretch my patience even more. He can cry. I carry him. He cries. I feed him. He cries. I change his nappies. He cries. I cuddle him. He still cries. So yes, my son continues to teach me about patience every day.

Selflessness.

A lot of times and in many ways, i have put myself first. But having him around has taught me to let the self take the backseat from time to time.

Giving.

I don’t remember the last time i have given my 10,000% at something until i gave birth to our little one. There is indeed so much joy in giving. :)

Surrender.

I can be a control freak, but after having a baby, there are more and more things I cannot control. Trying to have a hand in everything will just get me exhausted.

I GET to.

(This one, my husband taught me. Thanks, Love ü)

Many times at the beginning I’d catch myself saying I HAVE to nurse Sky, I HAVE to change his nappies, I HAVE to bathe him, and the list of I-have-to’s go on. My husband then reminded me that I have to change my mindset. Instead of thinking “I have to….” I should think “ I GET to…” I get to watch my son sleep, I get to have him in my arms, I get to nurse him.” <3

Grace.

This is the first time I really understood grace.

““But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness...”

‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭12:9‬ ‭NIV‬‬

“My grace is enough”… “My strength is made powerful in your weakness” — what?? At times i remember not understanding this, but simply believing. But now, I believe and I can say I can understand as well. There were so many times when Sky was just days old that I had to remind myself (well mostly my husband reminding me) that I just had to press on. There were so many things that only I, as his mother, can do. It was very difficult but no one else can do it for him.

I was so tired from sleepless nights, but in the end, grace.

I was physically healing from a caesarean operation on top of having to move around and carry him, but in the end, grace.

I had sore breasts and nipples and was close to giving up on breast feeding, but in the end, grace.

There were so many other things at that time i wish i could turn my back on but i knew i shouldn’t, in the end, grace.