Day 229: Wins and Losses

In the past 100 days since I’ve written in this public journal, so much has changed. I wish I could say that I’ve been so busy I forgot to write. The truth is, I’ve just been very insecure about everyone knowing so much about my life. To share a plan, then to fail publicly, is a scary way to live.

But the Holy Spirit has been very convicting of this fear, and I’ve decided to get back into the habit of writing. For no other reason than building my integrity by following through.

So, to the handful of people who actually care about what I have to say, I’m sorry I haven’t been consistent in my writing. Here are some things you may have missed.

There are many positive moving pieces in the Martin world.

  • Wil and I just celebrated our one year wedding anniversary.
  • We successfully grew that huge vegetable garden we were planning.
  • Sam just started 3rd grade.
  • SewLoved successfully made its first major angel gown donation to St. Francis Hospital.
  • I’m still working as a business manager, and we are looking at another year of major growth as a company.
  • My sweet little niece was born. And BOY is she cute!

There are also setbacks that we’ve had to contend with.

  • Even though we’ve paid off over $25,000 in debt principal in the past year, we’ve recently discovered another $23,000 debt that we have to pay back.
  • My follow up check up with my doctor showed that my condition may be getting worse, and even though I don’t currently have cancer, I am not out of the woods yet.
  • Despite all of our son’s breakthroughs with speech and development, we still have a long road ahead catching up.
  • My husband’s back pain returned with a vengeance last month. It’s back to physical therapy for him.

There are probably hundreds of other, smaller, wins and losses we could add to both of those lists.

But the reality is, “ain’t nobody got time fo’ that,” and I’m a busy lady.

Each win is a celebration.

Each loss is a reflection, a brainstorming session, and/or a decision.

Each one is a change, or warrants a change.

So, despite the ups and downs, we are moving forward.

Our family has taken so many next steps this year, it’s breathtaking. I am proud up us.

We have a long way to go.

But we’re farther than we’ve ever been.

And we’re no where near done.

We’re believing that God has something amazing in store for us as we become more fully committed to living out His Will for us. We are leaning into His Word, and we trusting that what he has in store for us exceedingly, abundantly, above all that we can ask for or imagine.

We are in the process of beginning some really exciting new adventures, and I hope every one of you reading will pray for us, and suspend your judgements for a while.