The Anonymous Motivator, lol.
Yeah that’s how I’m starting this thing. With a lol.
This is some sort of an experiment to me. I'm the researcher. I'm the scientist too. So yeah, no animal involved in this life saving experiment. Yeah, life saving mostly I guess.
This could be a 13 Reasons Why sort of thing too.
I'm a regular person. With some not so regular problems. Lots of insecurities. There is no job security. I fear judgement. I fear people. I was better before. My self esteem has hit an all time low. I have no faith. Not on myself, and definitely not on god. There are a lot of other issues too but those I'll keep them to myself. But there are issues.
So I've been reading a few self help articles because there is a desperate need for me get up and start working towards a better me. I need something to get me going. I fear people, I've let too many of them down. I don't have anyone to go to. I don't want to drown. I don't want anyone to drown.
So to make myself better I need to make amends. A lot of them.
So my plan is simple. Start from the basics. Try and change your basic behaviour, for yourself. At this point if you think, oh fuck off. I wanna be whoever I want to be. I am who I am. Yeah be yourself, but if you are being stupid by being your so called self. Then, mi amor, you're being worthless and hopeless.
Start from the grassroot level. There are people out there who are doing much more better than me. And if I am ignorant toward their lifestyles, I am not helping myself. Let that motivate you. Your friends are doing better. Good, it’s because they deserve too. And you don’t get to feel bad or jealous. Remember you’re just not working more, and even if you are, and luck is not being on your side. Get this, the weak follow their destiny, the strong make their own.
Start from the microscopic level. Start from drinking more water. Water helps, that's what I've read. Helps you lose weight and stuff. A little more water never hurt anyone. Start. I am gonna start drinking more water. Yeah that's a part of the plan. Unless I start taking care of my body. Cuz that's my soul and my body needs to come in sync. Ultimately, those are the only two things you've got, and they will work in your favour, if you want them to.
Set small goals, and work towards achieving them. With your current earning, can you make it Spain in a month? If yes, then this for the other kind of people who can’t. The other kind of people, I’m sure a lot of you are there, I am one of you too.
So baby steps, yeah? Towards a better you, towards a better me.
Drink more water. Take the stairs. Stop eating junk. Start reading more, read the most random thing you find, but make sure that it's something which gives you a better understanding about something new or anything, for that matter of fact.
From tomorrow, I’m gonna start a new job. After numerous rejections, the time was come for me to reignite. If you got a 10 to whatever job, start getting up early. I’m gonna get up early tomorrow.
Also, please do yourself the favour of stretching out that bedsheet, fix the pillow nicely and try folding the blanket.
You see these small steps, define you. Being more organised from the time you wake up is a brick which makes you more efficient and better. And fixing up your bed is the least you can do.
So let's get there slowly and steadily.
We'll get there I promise. I am counting on myself. I need you to count on yourself.
And the 13 Reasons thing up there. And no one needs to die here, no one is dying. We’re just finding ourselves again. Let’s do it together.
