How I ended up doing nothing

So, this Friday while I was sitting idly on my non-cosy chair, I started to think deeply again- how I actually ended up in doing nothing today! Usually my weekends are wonderful- they are wonderful because they are busy. I believe not being able to think about anything else but doing something is the key to remain happy. As soon as you lose something to be busy with- you start thinking about your past, or looking through posts from facebook, or something else that you don’t have any idea about- and most importantly it makes you sad and you end up in unnecessary thoughts like this- how might I have ended up doing nothing!

This is absolutely my case right now, perhaps that’s why I am writing now. Otherwise, I can’t remember how often I like to write or write at all! And while writing this I am trying to remember what actually made me to think about my boredom on Friday- how lame is that? Well, it’s not. Sometimes, it’s just cool enough to let others know what you are thinking- people absolutely don’t give a shit- but who cares? It’s you- who is writing and of course you are having fun- or you would have stopped in the first line!

Anyways, where were we? Ending up doing nothing, yeah! Well, I think it’s not that bad, to spend a whole day doing nothing. But for me it creates a sort of pressure inside my head- makes me think like am I becoming too lazy or am I losing the interest in life- too deep for a young guy! You see, what laziness costs me, oh I hate it.

So, this Friday, I figured out I am losing focus to everything, I don’t like to read anymore(I have forgotten when is the last time I read a book!), I don’t enjoy watching movies like before, I can’t concentrate on writing codes for hours(it was pretty normal before), I used to design and draw stuffs- I don’t do it anymore, I loved to talk to people and meet my friends- and now I find comfort in staying home alone. What might have gone so wrong lately? I have asked this couple times- no, more than that actually. Then I thought of something else that I don’t do so often. I thought of writing something and definitely I ended up writing this crap.

Well, I think that’s enough for an introduction. I just tried to depict a bit of myself in front of you, I might come back more often- not sure what I will write about- but I will try more. I am becoming bored and losing focus again. I think I will delete this if I don’t publish it right now. If you have already read it through, congratulations, I admire your patience!

Ah- am bored- am losing focus again. It’s time to say bye. I will come back, when I will be focused again. Till then…(there’s nothing to do, you can close this tab) :(