Taking a work break

Hi! My name is Tina, I have lived all of my life in some kind of stress. I will spare everyone the depressing details of my childhood and fast forward to now. I have currently started a vacation from work. Last Monday, I turned in my resignation letter with only a short 1 week notice and now I am home. I am in a territory I have never been in before. What I mean by this is that my boyfriend practically begged me to leave my job for my health and sanity as well as his. This is the first time I have been able to leave a job and not worry “too” much about my financial situation. We will still be able to pay all of the bills with only his job but there will not be much left to spare for non-necessity type things. This will be very hard for me as I have always had my own money. I have been working since I was 17 years old. I am 45 presently. At this current moment I am scared, bored and regretful for leaving my job. I feel lost, already, and it’s only been 3 business days since I left.

My main reason for leaving is to get my health back. The extreme stress from my former job was making me severely unhealthy. I was under so much pressure during my working hours that I constantly brought my troubles home. Not to mention buying a bag of whatever junk food I was hooked on at the time and eating them on the way home. It was getting out of control. Although I haven’t gained any extra weight, I have been unable to take the existing weight off. This is weight I gained 5 or more years ago when a doctor put me on an antidepressant in which the side effect was me being hungry constantly.

I need help from anyone out there who may have been through this before. How do I become more disciplined? How do I not fall into such boredom that I don’t find myself watching “Vampire Diaries” marathons on Netflix and eating chips and ice cream all day? This is not who I am!! I am that person who use to be in great shape! I used to ride my bike almost every day or go to the mountains, hike and do nature photography.

Just to be clear, last Monday I somehow injured my foot severely while cutting our grass. I ended up going to the hospital as it was swelled up beyond belief. I am hopeful it will heal quickly but I am impatient. I am letting my foot pain depress me into thinking I will be like this forever and the injury will never heal.

Anyway, foot issues aside. Has anyone else been in this situation? Has anyone else left their careers to rest and de-stress? Any advice would be super helpful! Please, keep in mind, if you do not have anything constructive to say, please do not say it. Also, keep in mind I am NOT a lazy person. Like I said, I’ve worked since I was 17 with little to no interruption. I have been the only of my siblings to cut my parents grass, hedges, my grass and hedges all that time as well. I hardly ever took any time for myself as I have always and endlessly been a chronic people pleaser. Please, no “Get up off your ass” comments as they are unwarranted. Thank you.