Stuck in First

emma l. h.
Sep 3, 2018 · 1 min read

Spiders do an amazing thing
Connect the corners, edges.
An unwalkable bridge
There by its own stickiness.
What if other things were spider webbish
A car, the floor, my back.
Lock me in and hurl me against time.

People do so many things and try so hard at them.
Me, I’m sitting at a bus stop
Trying to think of the right way to talk about the way trees by the highway shudder, you wonder if it’s windy, if you are outside.
I want to roll down a hill and finish with clumps of grass in my hands, which I will unfurl uncomfortably, “Nice!” Feels good, and rot at the same rate as the grass I just killed.

I realized true beauty is attainable by releasing the clench of jaw and hard shoulder curve. If I keep practicing, I can be like a puddle or a blanket.
I’m not really a phoenix, hawk, or eagle. I’m just a lark, floating, hoping to catch lightness under my wings.

emma l. h.

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24. Gemini. Inspired by Ottessa Moshfegh, Kate Zambreno, and The Real Housewives of New York City. Let’s say the wrong thing.