Discovering The Dark Side Of Humanity.

My story isn’t one about trying to discover the dark side of humanity. It came to me very quietly, as I was living my life. I guess I started noticing how some of the people in church would lie, when they told me lying was a sin. Or how politicians would say one thing and act a different way. Or how my Kindergarten teacher (on a field trip) took my money that I brought for the Farmer’s Market and bought suckers for the whole class. These examples are the just the tip pf the iceberg that I noticed when I was younger and the list could on and on. It only got worse as I grew up.
I am a highly sensitive person who feels emotions very deeply and strongly. Some might call me an empath, maybe say I’m psychic in a sense, but I consider myself An Awakened Human Being! ❤ I watched in high school as kids picked on each other, treated the girls in my class like shit and also sexually harassed them. And I wondered, WHAT THE FUCK, is this the system we teach our kids! I didn’t fit into this system at all and I think this is where part of my trauma came from. I started to guard myself in the 5th grade as soon as I was picked on. I started to realize that if I kept people at bay no one could touch me physically, mentally or emotionally. I definitely stopped people from picking on me. but also lost a part of my Humanity in the process. I don’t necessarily regret that. It was a coping system necessary at the time.
In my college years I noticed how all the kids got drunk and women were sexually assaulted on what seemed to be a regular basis. I thought to myself is this what college is? Isn’t it a place for higher education? Just like in high school they reach us to regurgitate facts that may or may not be true. And it seems like this system of education is made to just keep people working for corporations, a system where people can’t think for themselves. I think we should support a system for children and adults that lets them go after their interests, talents and passions, for what they want out of life.
Now as tell my story I would like to say that my awakening was slower than the way I’m telling my story. This story is told by a 40 year old man who has a great deal of life experience and knowledge and has lived his life the way he wants to. My awakening happened when I was 21 and I had a failed suicide attempt. This opened up a whole new world of healing and freedom for myself.
In my 20’s I followed the news and events of the world and all I seemed to see was corruption, fighting, lies, people treating each other like shit. stealing, suing each other for petty stuff and watching corporations steal money from people and only get a slap on the wrist or a fine. And no one even went to jail! And the newspapers made it sound like it was ok and people accepted that. And I think lawyers more or less rule the world now. I mean everything on the web you have to sign a set of rules if you want to use a corporations product or service!
During the time I was still suffering from depression, anxiety, ptsd ,adrenal fatigue issues that almost ended my life! When I look back on it now something miraculous happened… I found running and what would turn out to be my job as a project manager for the next 10 years.Through running I learned determination, struggle, how to train for life, friendship and whatever I put in I would get out.
My job didn’t start out being a project manager. I worked my up from the warehouse floor. After they put me in the position of dispatcher, I had no clue what I was doing. I was put in charge of managing 50 plus people in the shipping department of a 4 billion dollar company! Talk about pressure! I had no experience and wasn’t even trained on how to do the job. I had to use my gut determination and work my ass off to do that job(while all the while dealing with my health problems). There were a couple problems though, even though I was in charge of 50 plus people, I didn’t have the power to enforce any of the rules and I had no support from management and some of the people I worked with were horrendous. I learned a great deal about my inner strength and tenacity. And I also had to learn how to deal with people and that was probably the hardest part of my job. As the job went on I learned I had a good of organizational skills and that was one of my talents.
All of the above information was to be of use to me when some very dark information started coming my way.
I had always known there were tons of problems with the system. I just didn’t realize how far down and deep rooted it was. When I look back my first real knowledge of what some might consider conspiracy theories( a term I think coined by the CIA) was when I watched the film by JFK by Oliver Stone. I was only about 13 and a lot what was in the movie made sense to me. Something didn’t fucking fit! I didn’t realize this until later though…I started watching documentaries when I was about 33 years old and they showed me some very dark heart wrenching truths. Food Inc. showed me how our food supply is treated with pesticides and how we ingest then and how they poison our organs from the inside, Also they showed the inhumane slaughtering of animals. The especially gruesome part was how baby cows were hung upside down by their back legs, still alive and the momma cows had to watch as their babies were taking to the slaughter. Nothing quite like hearing mom cows cry for their kids… I was literally dry heaving, my whole body was convulsing! Or how about the movie Worse Than War. What a catchy title huh? What could be worse than war? How about genocide- the systematic killing of humans because of their beliefs. 100 million were slaughtered from 1900 to 2009. That shocked me beyond all belief! Another moment where my body was convulsing. There were many more, but the real one that opened the door for me was called Zeitgeist. This really showed me how the system was flawed. It showed how The Federal Reserve is run by private banks and how 12 people are elected to the board by other bankers and control our whole money system. Mother fucker! And then there was another topic, but the one that caught my eye was the one about 9/11….
I had heard rumors about how the official story about 9/11 wasn’t true and I always thought no way! After watching this though it made me pause and think. This documentary didn’t convince me, but I went searching and what I found shook me to the core.
So let me tell you how my life intertwines with 9/11. 9/11/2001 was a day that changed my life( as well as many other people). As that day unfolded I watched in horror and amazement. How could life almost seem to shut down? It was chilling to watch as planes crashed into building, people jumping to their deaths. I think that day showed me how connected I was to people. I also experienced a dark side of hatred. As I went to the gas station to get my daily afternoon snack, I saw my friend and cashier there. My friend was an Arab and a good dude. but a soon as I walked in I could tell something was wrong. He looked not just scared, but scared for his life. I’m not sure if you have ever seen anyone scared for their life, but for me it is a very distinct sight. I asked him if was ok and with his voice shaking and hands trembling he said no. I tried to offer him support, but there wasn’t much I think I could have done besides say a prayer. This also I think helped to shape my views on how to treat people with respect.
Now the other thing that happened about a month later was that I had a nervous breakdown. I didn’t realize at the time, but I’m pretty sure I felt an evil come into this world, a dark spot on humanity.
So there’s a lot of discrepancies I think in the official story. Like why Dick Chaney and George Bush Jr. got to testify behind closed doors, with the records sealed. or how 2200 architects have said that there is no way the building could have collapsed from jet fuel.
So one of my theories about 9/11 is that if you can prove one part of the official story is false, then the rest of the official story has to be false.
So I will focus on one part or glitch in the system. World Trade Center 7. World Trade Center 7 collapsed on 9/11/2001 at 5:20 pm. The first time I looked at the Building 7 collapse I didn’t think much of it. But many years later I saw World Trade Center 7 compared side by side with a building that was brought down by controlled demolition(explosives) I was in disbelief…. then it hit me, son of a bitch. World Trade Center 7 looked the same as the building being brought down by controlled demolition. I had a hard time digesting this. I mean no way. Shock, awe disbelief. The weirdest thing is that a fire I think would have a hard time making a building collapse straight down cause it wouldn’t take all the support beams with it…. Please check out a video of World Trade Center 7 next to a controlled demolition and let me know what you think.

800 USA military bases worldwide
Money not backed by anything.
Corporations control the government
Our biggest export is weapons.
FREEDOM
After this I am done writing about the truth and will do more of what I love.
Some realizations I have had:
How we treat each other is everything.
This experience is as real as it gets.
We are Souls and Organisms.
Life is precious.
Brett Drummond
