Life after Graduation, More humble and more grateful
Ah! Finally, somehow I’m here and I’m bit glad to be at. Writing autobiography I means so called autobiography is pretty difficult task because I think we as a human are most of the times not real we are not as we pretend to be. No one is willing to expose himself or bad things about his own self at a public platform through writing a book or publishing a blog.
But I do and when I do I intend to share the reality what did actually happen to me? I believe that life has different phases and these are divided into equal parts. First phase of your life starts as you come to this world as a baby guest and last until you attain the age of a teen. Then your college life starts and ends with graduation college degree (I’m talking about an ideal situation this may differ for some audience but bit same in most the cases).
When I started schooling back in late nineteens my father was already had left the job. Sources were bit scared as they always do. I didn’t have any know how about those things.I was like a crawling one who doesn’t know what’s going on around him. Any how my father was struggling to provide us ( me, my elder brother and sister). I finished my middle and insisted or tried to persuade my father to let me go to a private school ( a well reputed in the town) to finish my secondary school so that I can secure good marks and might get some exposure. It was an expensive school as compared to state owned schools because education was almost free in state schools till metric.
Some how he got accepted my proposal and agreed to send me to that school and a new life began. I studied there two years and those two years were the turning path of my life. I came to know about too many things that were completely unknown to me before like I didn’t think before that we need money to survive or our society is status conscience or things like that crux of which that more the money you have more you can get honor in society.
Fortunately I finished my schooling on high note. Got good results and accepted for a fully funded scholarship for my further studies. Sometimes you don’t have to plan the things in way they suit you but Allah does it on your behalf and Almighty has decided your fate and your job is just not to mess it up. At least he did in my case. Meanwhile my elder brother who no doubt did a lot for our family who after my father was the main hero of the story and he provided for us and still he is doing. He got his masters degree and started to teach at a local school to earn some livelihood.
Again this time I got good marks and finished my higher secondary schooling and was eager to step in to university life. Again funds were scare and wishes were unlimited (a rule of economics, jokes a part).But my father took stand and decided to send me to university for a college degree in business studies. He knew that he won’t be able to afford my expenses being studying in a city other than our home town but he took it with courage and a trust in Allah. Any hows I came here in the city of gardens, knowledge and lot more other things LAHORE, a newly countryman who know nothing about big cities and their culture, norms and life style eventually stepped in. During the four years graduation period I certainly felt the ups and downs in my life. Right after my 4 semesters I lost my inspiration my determination and my courage when I lost my father fighting with a fatal disease( May Allah have mercy on him, as he brought me up when I was a kid) ameen. Again I became helpless. I felt like I am going deeper and deeper into the depths of grief and sorrows. There was no light no hope left for a moment.
You can’t imagine, How could you?, how does it feel to abandon your loved one but I did it with courage just like that he taught me. I think words are not enough to write about this but I summed up it here. I finished my college degree and the university life either.
You don’t know sometimes Allah has better plans for you. This might be a strong believe that stops you to collapse whatever it is it does help and hold you. Well, this was my life before graduation. Lot of ups and downs, hope, courage, guilty, wishes and desires were made it.
My thoughts, reflections and ideals were changed when I stepped out of college. I started to sense the mentality of people around me and got to know that how harsh this world is. How difficult is to find a livelihood here. During this Amal Academy (a stanford funded project that teaches graduates different needed skills www.amalacademy.org) helped me to sharpen my skills and stand out in a job market. Thanks you my mentor and friend Mr. Benjemin Williams who changed my concepts and way of thinking about life.
Finally I got a job in my dream company and started working there. daily life was totally changed day routines were not the same as in university. Relationships started to build up in professional life but sadly those were just not real these were fake most of them. I came to know that people use others to get their work done they deceive you they doge you many times just get their purpose. After a year I lost my mother too and life again did shut the door of hope for me for a while. Left job and spent more than eight months in mourning and doing nothing at home. That period was tougher one than any other period in my life.
Being jobless makes you depressed, being depressed all the time and sitting idol was painful. It was too much painful than any thing else in this world. I was not too much religious before that. Now, the crux of this story which I wanted to let you know that and take some positive points with you is that after being hopeless, depressed and feeling down I eventually came to Allah.
And I came to know that we have a very less authority over our lives it is he who created us who designed us in way he wanted to do. He created all the circumstances for us he designed this world in way to broke our heart because we can never be truly happy in this temporary world.
Allah is our true lord and he test us in our lives. He said in Quran “ Do you really think that you will be left unquestionable just because you believe, We surely shall test each single one of you with a loss of life, with a loss of health and with a loss of loved ones”
So this is reality that we didn’t come here by our own will, we didn’t craft the life we are living and we didn’t wish to be a human. We are being brought by our lord he who is the lord of kings and to him the kingdom is belonged.So I did put my trust on him and showed my faith in him.I talked to him during my prayers and got answered my prayers and now with his grace and mercy I got a job a decent job, a healthy and peaceful mind, loyal siblings and many other things that were around me but didn’t I enjoy them before.
So brothers and sisters my life has been changed after graduation. I am now more grateful, humble and down to earth. I wish you could understand it and start living your life with more passion and a will to follow the teachings of Allah and his beloved prophet (PBUH).
Allah says in surah Al duaha surah 93. verse 4
“And the hereafter is better for you than the first life”
