I suffer from depression and this passage as well as the one where you describe depression as though the veil of happiness is removed and you are seeing truthfully for the first time really resonated with me.

Going through a depressive episode right now and then a friend committed suicide. And I felt sad and hurt because she never came to me after her Bipolar diagnosis even after being open with her about my own mental health issues. But mostly I was angry. Why did she get to do it? Why was I held back by family, my children and my thinking about how my suicide would affect them?

Why couldn’t I be selfish, think of myself, why have I put myself back into this world of pain despair and nothingness, time and time again because I am thinking of others. I was jealous of her freedom.

Thinking through it this way has made me begin to come to terms with her suicide, and the thoughts of suicide running rampart in my head right now. This article really helped. Thank you!

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