What a moving post. It seems you are at peace with your decision and that is half the battle, I’m sure. My mother has stage IV breast cancer that has metasticized to her bones and bowels. It’s been an on again, off again battle since 2000. She’s currently doing chemo in the hopes of a few more years but it’s taking a toll on her mentally and spiritually. If it doesn’t work this time, she’ll be choosing as you have. Such a hard decision and everyone is different. I wish you peace as you endure this terrible illness.