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Tuesday 2nd June 2020

My Instagram feed was filled with black squares as the world showed solidarity to Black Lives Matter. Social Media was flooded with donation links to help protesters, books to educate on black history and suggestions of influencers to follow for more information and incite.

The murder of George Floyd in Minneapolis became the catalyst for the world condemning racism and preaching to combat it. This is a big step. For centuries, people with black and brown skin have been treated as inferior. I’ve watched it in ‘Roots,’ read about it in books and have seen the injustices, which within the black community is a normality. Black people are three times as likely to be arrested as whites and people of mixed heritage are twice as likely, but some argue that racism doesn’t exist. Even with the most recent case of George Floyd and the chilling video watched by millions, there are still some who believe that his murder was justified and continue to deny that this act was motivated by racism. That’s the problem: Human beings won’t accept things that don’t fit in with their particular view of the world. …


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My Nike trainers pounded the pavement as I panted through the streets of Bromley, recalling my childhood nightmares of long distance running. I loathe it, I’ve never had the stamina and running a 10K, let alone a marathon is a pipe dream. Growing up, I was part of all of the sport’s ‘A’ teams: netball, hockey, rounders, athletics and for short sprints would typically finish in the top three but finishing a 1500m race in anything other than last was never on the cards for me.

With the gym being closed and having to fight for space at home for Instagram live workouts, I decided that it was time to give running another go and downloaded the 5K Runner app. Completing a 5K would definitely be a challenge because a) I can’t run that far to save my life. A warm up at the gym would consist of me running 1K before moving on; b) I like to be good at everything and typically skip activities in which I’m less talented and c) my approach to running needs, perseverance, enthusiasm and commitment. In a letter to my parents terminating my flute lessons indefinitely, my teacher wrote, “I’m sorry to lose Naomi as a pupil, but I honestly feel that she will never succeed as a flute player with such a ‘laid back’ approach to lessons. …


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Three weeks ago, I was working in another city on the other side of the world. I would wake to the sun’s rays warming my face and spend mornings in my beautiful apartment with a mug of fruit favoured tea, staring at the Baltimore city landscape. I felt lucky, how many people get to travel like this for work? This week, things have flipped and are very different. I’m camped out on the sofa of my family home in overcast England, with no job and no idea when that will change. The normality of travel, being out and about where and when I like, working out in the gym, dining in restaurants and regularly getting my nails done has ceased. 2020 marked the beginning of a new decade and I had big plans. …


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Because sometimes we need to level with ourselves…

Naomi,

I hope one day you read this and realise what a wonderful human you are. You are full of light and love and so willing to share that with others. I am so proud of the person you are becoming, and I cannot wait to see where life takes us.

Spiritually to date, we have been on quite the journey and I wish to start here because your spiritual wellbeing comes above and before anything else. I have no idea where we will be when you next read this, but this is my advice: Find time at the beginning, middle and end of your day to take deep breaths and pause. Connect with your Heavenly Father…really connect with him because he wants to hear from you. Think about the things you are thankful for and tell him, ask him for the things that you need and for guidance. Ask him to guide you to those who need your help and think about your shortcomings and the things you need to change, then listen. Listen to your heart, listen to your thoughts and feelings, write things down and then act on everything that you feel, even if it scares you… it will change your life. …


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“There is no greater good in all the world than motherhood. The influence of a mother in the lives of her children is beyond calculation.” — James E. Faust

As I walk into the hallway of our Edwardian home in Kent, I’m greeted by mother, Jacqui. We embrace and she leads me to our family room. The sweet smell of Ylang Ylang oil permeates the air as she walks across the parquet flooring towards a brown coffee sofa and she is looking incredibly well. Our home bursts with character as I take in my surroundings. Sunlight, bursts through french doors, glistening on the creamy, vignette walls crowded with artwork from the likes of Sanderson and Sands. The four African Massai warrior figurines dance along a white, gloss window sill, a marble Christus central to them all. She chose to put it there, the focal point of the room because Christ is central to her life and she felt it deserved pride of place. …


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I stood at the summit of Twin Peaks looking into the black of the night, the San Francisco Bay dazzled by what felt like a million twinkling Christmas lights. It was breathtaking and I tried to absorb every detail of my surroundings to remember that moment forever. Thousands of cars scattered the streets heading to different destinations and I thought about the dwellings below filled with people in the place they all called home. There was so much life down there and at that moment I felt insignificant.

From the outside looking in, I come across as this confident, outspoken character who has everything together and in most instances I am those things, but I’ve found myself in my latter years, interchanging my powerful, confident, girl boss hat for one of a much smaller magnitude. I have many hats, but often I find myself wearing the hat which needs to be thrown away never to be seen again. The hat I find myself wearing wills myself to blend into the background and remain unseen, feeling that what I have to offer is not good enough and is unimportant and inconsequential. Why I allow these thoughts to manifest is beyond me because I know its nothing more than the ‘negative committee’ occasionally meeting inside my head. However I know I need to start embracing standing out and taking risks rather than trying to camouflage and sometimes, when the ‘negative committee’ really get going, just not showing up to situations altogether and taking the option of running for the hills instead. …

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Naomi Notice

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