Purpose. What is your purpose? What is mine? This is something I contemplate every single day of my life. I never really used to do this. What I mean by that is I never really thought deeply about my life, my choices, and the ident my life has in this world. Some people would call that being naive. I would agree.

I’m a recent college grad. Still really haven’t hit me even writing it now. Wow. The whole time I was in school I went about the hustle and bustle of the work load and never stopped to think where I was going. Let me tell you, college was the best time of my life. I will always remember those four years as some of the most wonderful. What I look back on and think about is what I could have done differently. This is what haunts me to this day. I don’t have a job in my area of study. I’m working as a customer service representative. I see many of my peers on social media energetically and happily writing posts about their new job, their new place, their new car while I’m sitting there feeling dreadful and jealous. Absolutely jealous. I’m a college grad, yes, but I still live with my parents. No dream job. No new car. I feel like a complete and total failure. This sounds so overly depressive and down but I wanted to write honestly. I want to get my frustrations and real pure thoughts out there. Life, as many elders before me have reflected, is hard. It sucks at times. I feel so lost. I sit and just think about my life and what I have accomplished. Then I compare that to those of my peers. Social media can be a wonderful thing, but many times it brings me down. I know I should be happy for people and their accomplishments, their happiness. Many a times I am, but more than not I become bitter. My self- esteem dissapears. The respect I have for myself slowly diminishes.

If I could do anything in this world it would be to travel. To just go around the world and meet new people. Taste new delicacies. Just relax, have fun, and find myself. I want to have a family. I want to help people. My dreams include anything that has to do with making people happy. Putting a smile on other peoples faces makes me happy. I have always had the philosophy of spreading positivity. Why be negative and nasty when we all can choose to be positive and see the good in people. Give people a chance. No matter their skin color, race, religion, and political views. Yes, difference is great. It’s the best thing out world needs. Different people with different points of view, with different experiences. Don’t let difference divide us. Let it join us together as one human race. We are all human if you didn’t already know.

Purpose. I don’t know mine yet. Do you? I’m searching for mine far and wide. Yes, I’m still young but I want to be happy. I feel as though finding my purpose in life will truly make me happy. If not all the way, it will make me happier. I hope you all can take time to find your purpose. To find your amhappie s.

Love and light to all