If i m ready ….

Mother to be …..

.. When I got pregnant every night I saw in my dreams that I was NOT pregnant. When I woke up in the morning I was coming back to reality that it was just a dream and I’m pregnant and mother to be. It was hard each day realize it again and again. As I wrote in my first post I was not ready and couldn’t believe that it happening with me that I’m finally pregnant after 31 years living in this earth and that for now it is end of my travelling and my freedom that I was so proud to have.

Interesting, is it happening for a lot of women who got pregnant?!

I talked with one girl and she told me that she enjoyed her pregnancy and that now after some break she wants another one, but for me to THING about one more time to be pregnant it is too much. I still didn’t finish my first one, even not half of it, ha ha! Sometimes I’m so happy that we will have little baby that you can live for and care about, but sometimes it is just too scary and unknown, we always afraid of something we don’t know especially such serious CHANGE of life. In yoga there is saying “life. Let it happen”, so I decided if I don’t really know what will happen let it happen by it self and just watch it, when we watching something without feeling and crazy thinking our thoughts are clear for new understanding, new way to see and do things.

It will help I know ☺ because positive thinking always helps in difficult situations maybe for somebody it is not very difficult but for me it is big big change of life. I know that it is good change but still..